I am torn. In the post "Do You Know Me?" I had mentioned that a friend expressed an interest in posting some of my posts/about my blog at their church's Facebook page. I am somewhat leaning that way. But still not ready to do that, yet. They would not reveal me as the writer. But I am still apprehensive about being "recognized." I would like to think that if anyone were to realize it was written by me they would not judge or think less of me. And hopefully they would not ask me about it, nor ask the friend if it is me.
Even though there have been times I have considered posting a new post to my Facebook I don't think I am able to do that. I would still post as though it were just something I came across online. Which wouldn't be too far off. As I do post about pro-life issues. Yet my friends, and family too would wonder why not only I was posting a story about "a woman who has had abortions" but that the whole blog was the telling of the "woman who has had the abortions" from her own view.
I have one friend who is not only adamantly pro-life, but can also be harsh towards women who have had abortions. This person once posted to Facebook an article about Norma McCorvey, "Jane Roe" from the Roe v. Wade Supreme Court case. They called her a b&**% and said that "she should rot in hell." Funny thing is, that the article they posted was from a pro-life website where she was talking about revealing her connection to Roe v. Wade, how she is now pro-life and her activism to stopping abortion. Did "FB Friend" even read the article or watch the accompanying video?
Of course I could block this person from seeing any of the posts. But I still, how would others react? I know I have other pro-life friends. And they have posted pro-life related items. While their reactions are not quite as extreme as above described person, they have expressed a dislike for women having abortions and not understanding how someone could have abortions. Although, they have not alluded to a dislike for the women themselves. But I do wonder what is in their hearts?
I did talk today with the friend who is the administrator of their church's Facebook page about possibly revealing the blog, but not my "real name." They said it would be up to me and would not do anything without me expressly giving the go ahead. This is something I would have to think long and hard about and DEFINITELY pray over before I made a decision. Once I go forward, I can't go back. Plus, I would not want to put them in the compromising situation of having to answer any questions should someone ask "about the author of "Abortions Sucks!".
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Tuesday, May 26, 2015
Wednesday, May 13, 2015
Do You Know Me?
This is a post I have been having bopping about in my head for a few days. It could have a few multiple connections to it. Then in an email exchange my dummy self told my mother about this blog, just not the title or link. But more about that later.
I try to stay as anonymous online as possible in regards to the abortions. When writing I try to be as basic as possible while trying to avoid anyone recognizing me. I make sure that no one knows where I live or where the abortions took place. I avoid using names in any way. There are only a rare few couple of persons who know me and this blog, simultaneously. Telling others of my abortions is something I am unable to do. Though I am able to speak of it and my thoughts "behind the safety of a computer."
A friend who is the administrator to their church's Facebook page expresses an interest in linking my blog to one of the page's postings. The selfLESS side of me would allow it,if it would help someone who has had an abortion, those wondering about the life of a post-abortion person and/or someone in a crisis pregnancy. The selfISH side of me knows that many of my friends read that page. While I do try to be as careful as possible not to be recognized, I am still afraid that there may be that one minute thing that a friend could pick up on.
I am many persons to many people. Those who know of my Anastasia and Hanelore account don't know my personal likes and dislikes or basic bio info. I have a Facebook account on my real name. Those people know my likes and dislikes along with basic bio info. And even though they know I am pro-life and post about pro-life news and issues, they do not know about my abortions.
Sometimes I wonder if my family, friends and co-workers even know me.
Even as myself, I feel as though others don't really know me. In this fast paced world, we as a society don't take the time to know others. All we want to do is make small talk with others. We judge others. We make up stories about others. It's easier than to talk and listen to those who are hurting.
We see so many people around us. Perhaps they seem fine, perhaps not. Abortion is legal. Yet there is shame with it. No one wants to admit to having one. Maybe it is because deep down, legal or not, our consciousnesses tell us and know it is a sin.
Perhaps the girl standing behind you at the grocery store has had an abortion. What about the checkout girl at the grocery store you see once or twice a week during your shopping. You talk to her about her cats, her home, her kids, her spouse, her parents, etc. But you don't know the pain she may be hiding. I am in no way advocating that you ask her about her personal details. Just saying that many people are hiding hurts that many of us could not imagine.
It is not just about abortion either. Some of it could be sins that the person was directly involved in. Maybe it was something beyond their control that the sin was committed against them. Somebody told them they were in the wrong and they feel guilt for no reason.
One of the things that bugs me is middle age men who say to women, "Why don't you smile?". And yes, it is almost always middle age men that do that. But not all middle age men do that. I mean, REALLY?! They don't even know me! Be they customers from my job, someone in line at the store, someone from church that I don't even have regular conversations with, or what have you. I always want to ask, "do you know me?".
That's the thing with modern society. Everyone is expected to smile, smile, smile! For no reason. It would be one thing for someone to walk around with a constant frown. Even then still, if you don't know the person, leave them alone. There life is none of your business! Can't people just have a neutral look on their face without someone bothering them?
I try to stay as anonymous online as possible in regards to the abortions. When writing I try to be as basic as possible while trying to avoid anyone recognizing me. I make sure that no one knows where I live or where the abortions took place. I avoid using names in any way. There are only a rare few couple of persons who know me and this blog, simultaneously. Telling others of my abortions is something I am unable to do. Though I am able to speak of it and my thoughts "behind the safety of a computer."
A friend who is the administrator to their church's Facebook page expresses an interest in linking my blog to one of the page's postings. The selfLESS side of me would allow it,if it would help someone who has had an abortion, those wondering about the life of a post-abortion person and/or someone in a crisis pregnancy. The selfISH side of me knows that many of my friends read that page. While I do try to be as careful as possible not to be recognized, I am still afraid that there may be that one minute thing that a friend could pick up on.
I am many persons to many people. Those who know of my Anastasia and Hanelore account don't know my personal likes and dislikes or basic bio info. I have a Facebook account on my real name. Those people know my likes and dislikes along with basic bio info. And even though they know I am pro-life and post about pro-life news and issues, they do not know about my abortions.
Sometimes I wonder if my family, friends and co-workers even know me.
Even as myself, I feel as though others don't really know me. In this fast paced world, we as a society don't take the time to know others. All we want to do is make small talk with others. We judge others. We make up stories about others. It's easier than to talk and listen to those who are hurting.
We see so many people around us. Perhaps they seem fine, perhaps not. Abortion is legal. Yet there is shame with it. No one wants to admit to having one. Maybe it is because deep down, legal or not, our consciousnesses tell us and know it is a sin.
Perhaps the girl standing behind you at the grocery store has had an abortion. What about the checkout girl at the grocery store you see once or twice a week during your shopping. You talk to her about her cats, her home, her kids, her spouse, her parents, etc. But you don't know the pain she may be hiding. I am in no way advocating that you ask her about her personal details. Just saying that many people are hiding hurts that many of us could not imagine.
It is not just about abortion either. Some of it could be sins that the person was directly involved in. Maybe it was something beyond their control that the sin was committed against them. Somebody told them they were in the wrong and they feel guilt for no reason.
One of the things that bugs me is middle age men who say to women, "Why don't you smile?". And yes, it is almost always middle age men that do that. But not all middle age men do that. I mean, REALLY?! They don't even know me! Be they customers from my job, someone in line at the store, someone from church that I don't even have regular conversations with, or what have you. I always want to ask, "do you know me?".
That's the thing with modern society. Everyone is expected to smile, smile, smile! For no reason. It would be one thing for someone to walk around with a constant frown. Even then still, if you don't know the person, leave them alone. There life is none of your business! Can't people just have a neutral look on their face without someone bothering them?
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