I am nearing my 40th birthday. I had my first abortion when I was 20 years old. I have just now come to terms with it. After almost 20 years. At the beginning I was so far in denial that even if I were put through I lie detector test being asked such questions as if I ever had an abortion or was ever even pregnant I could answer no and completely pass said lie detector. A few years after that I did realize that I did have an abortion. Yet, it was so far in the back of my mind that I was reflecting on it in terms of being a third person.
It has only been since March of 2014 in which I realized that I did have any abortions. Where it actually felt like memories, as opposed to being on the outside looking in. The anxiety and other emotions have been constant in my thoughts since then. I replay in my head the circumstances leading up to the procedure. The coercion from family. Myself not standing up to them and protecting my own child. Wishing I had done one thing or another to have stopped it. Wishing that there had been someone with more of a backbone to stop it.
Looking back, I have realized how the abortions affected my life in a sub-conscience way. I have since been reading the truth about what abortion is really about. How the feminists have lied to women, and not just on abortion issues, since the so-called "sexual revolution." I may not know a whole lot. But I do plan to tell my story in parts. Give my opinions. Link to pro-life articles shedding the light on the truth and news that is pertinent to the pro-life movement. I am in no way an expert. But I do have thoughts. Thoughts that need to be shared.
