Friday, September 9, 2016

Run, Run Away!

So I was in bed, reading. More than halfway through the book "The Case for Life" by Scott Klusendorf on my Kindle. While the book is about how to speak the pro-life message, and not really personal stories or healing, an unrelated thought popped in my head. That happens to me quite often. I felt the need to stop reading and share said thought.

See, I still have trouble connecting twenty year old me to fortysomething year old me. It is hard to explain, but the best I can do is to describe it in that memories related to the pregnancy(ies) don't quite feel like memories; as in I remember them as through myself. Almost as if I know this deep dark secret about someone I once knew. But that someone I knew was not me. I hope that makes sense.

Anyways, I had this overwhelming thought that if I could go back in time to meet "this pregnant young woman" I knew twenty years ago, and after hearing of the "family intervention" I would shake her at the shoulders. I would tell her to run away from her family. I would tell her to cut off all contact with them. Maybe even tell her to cut contact with "Matt." I would tell her to be like Lot's wife and not look back...

Look her in the eye. Tell her, "Look at me, really look at me. I am you. You, who you will be in more than twenty years. When your family made known their desire to abort your child; you are wondering if this was your only chance to have a child. You are wondering what your life would be like if you give birth or if you abort. You are trying to picture yourself in the future. I have sad news for you. You will get pregnant again. Next time, it will be your "choice." There is more, much more I can tell you. Things that won't be pretty. Your life won't go too smoothly. You won't ever have children. Your not going to meet any men worthy of marrying. I don't know what will happen should you decide to take my advice and keep your child. There are no guarantees. But I truly believe your life will be more fulfilling should you keep your baby, or at least put her up for adoption. I can tell you for certain you will spend the rest of your life hurting should you carry on with an abortion."